Pasture Experience

As I read my daily devotion yesterday morning, I was blessed by the words. Although it’s something that’s been heard before, sometimes you’re in a particular place where a word meets you right where you are. Or you can receive a word that will prepare you for what’s to come. I am reading a devotions series called Wait and See. It speaks on the waiting process.

Yesterday’s devotion was entitled, ‘Pasture Experiences.’ It talked about David in the bible. For those who aren’t Christians or aren’t familiar with the Bible text, the lesson talked about how David was anointed King. He was young, he wasn’t ready or experienced, but his time and experience as a shepherd prepared him to be king.

The devotion went on to talk about things that were promised over our lives or things that we were called to do or be. Things don’t always come in an instant. They don’t come right away. Most times we have to go through a period of waiting. We are all aware of this, but some times we don’t always like to go through the waiting process. Or sometimes the process is longer than we’d anticipated. It’s normal for us to get frustrated or even begin to doubt as we wait. But what this devotion encouraged was not to give up. Without even realizing in those moments or during the periods, we are actually being built. And everything that we go through, that we don’t always like, is giving us the experience that we need to be exactly who we are called to be, and to do exactly what we are called to do.

In the devotion, the lady shared how one of her friends knew she was called to write a book. But it took her years to actually make it happen. So many things came up against her and many doors closed, but it was necessary for her book and for her message.

It’s funny, but I can relate. I was called to write a book long before I began blogging. God called me to write, I was told to write everything, no matter what others thought (family and friends alike) and how this book would be successful and be a blessing to others. I was straight out of college. And I thought, if God wants me to write it, let me get started. One Sunday, it all came to mind what I should include in a book. So I went to work. But it wasn’t working for me. My computer crashed three times and it became so difficult to write it all out. I reached out to authors, received advice. I even had a meeting with an author who published two or three books to lay it out and get the advice I needed to be a successful author. But after a while, I was still stuck. I just couldn’t write this book. So I stopped. I gave up on it. But something wouldn’t let me give up on writing altogether. I began to blog and realized I needed to continue my book. Years later, and I’m here. I’m working on a book or two, but I know it wasn’t time to complete it. In the years after I was called to write a book, I experienced things I’d never thought I’d experience. I mean never. I was in places I could never see myself in, at the time I was called. I can now see myself reaching a new audience because of what I’ve experienced. Not everything needs to be in this particular book, but I know my experiences will help me to get to the place that I’m meant to go. I know my experiences will help me to share a message I’d never been able to share had I wrote the book at that time.

One thing I haven’t always done in my waiting that we must do is keep working. Keep doing good. We have to continue to work in the other areas in our lives, never giving up on what we know we’ve been called to. As well as working towards what we’ve been called to. I may not have finished that book or books I know that are in me, but I’m writing. I’m still tending to the area of my calling. I’m still reading, I’m still researching. The work isn’t dead.

In your waiting season, be sure to work. This is just your pasture experience. All that you experience between the time of your calling and the time of your promise, is building your character. Which help you carry out the promise. So I just want to encourage you to work while you wait. Always tending to the area of your calling. Don’t give up and don’t give in. Journey on!

-xo Miss Jones

Don’t Miss Your Moment

Often times we allow certain moments to escape us and we end up with feelings of regret and wish we’d made the right moves.

I’ve been so caught up on many things, that in a sense I’ve neglected my writing. I told myself that today would definitely be a day that I got back to my personal blog and posted a new article. As today is the day that I lost a bro one year ago, I finally was able to push myself to listen to a video with his voice in it. I began to realize the reason why I hadn’t been able to this entire year that he’s been gone. I’d subconsciously put myself on a guilt trip because of our last conversation. Him and I spoke, and I was supposed to call him the week he was going to Miami. Not knowing that he wouldn’t come back alive, I allowed myself and so many other things to get in the way, and making that call escaped me. I beat myself up because our last conversation could’ve been a little different. As I’ve written before, I lost my grandmother last year as well. And during that process, in a way I did the same thing. I wished I was able to make more memories, but it was too late.

As I sat and thought about all of this this morning, my writing wheels began to turn. Not only do we allow the possibility of making memories with people pass by, but we do this with opportunity as well.

There’s so much inside of us, and so many times we allow ourselves and other things, some of which isn’t really all that important, get in the way of us doing what we should be doing or hopping on an opportunity that would help us excel.

To avoid putting yourself through unnecessary guilt, which can cause you to become stagnant, just learn to do what you said you’d do. I can’t say it any plainly. We have to learn to follow through in all areas of our lives. As a result, we won’t regret lost time as often and we’d take advantage of every opportunity that we encounter.

I’m sure we all have that one thing or that one area where it’s been a little difficult to completely follow through. Sometimes we get in our own way, sometimes we allow outside sources to get in the way. Other times it’s fear and insecurities. Once we put things into perspective, prioritize, and see the importance of that particular thing, we’d be able to get done what we’ve set out to do.

I just want to encourage you all to take advantage of opportunities that are in front of you. Don’t wait until it’s too late. Don’t end up regretting or putting yourself on a guilt trip because you didn’t follow through. We can live a life of fulfillment when we get whatever “it” is done. Don’t miss your moment!

-xo Miss Jones

Check Your Emotions

Often times we experience a myriad of emotions. Emotions that come from real places. We all have our fair share of issues, circumstances, and situations that we go through. Some situations that may sway us and cause us to feel different emotions. However, how we react or respond is ultimately how it’ll continue to play out in our lives.

 
I’m the type of person who wears her emotions all over her face. If I’m dealing with a situation, it’s usually hard for me not to show it. I would typically allow things to frustrate me more than it usually would if I wasn’t going through. Over the course of a few months, I’ve been dealing with a few things. Seems like I’ve been come up against in every area. And for some reason it just kept feeling like I was going deeper and deeper into circumstances. My emotions were all out of whack. I found myself distancing myself more, talking less, and subconsciously submerging myself further into all of my issues.

 
A few months ago, this particular post came to me. I literally heard: check your emotions, watch your disposition. It was at that moment that I realized the reason why things seemed to have gotten worse. It was me. I continued to stay in my feelings, which caused me to think negatively in a sense. Which brings the thought “I’m probably going to stay here forever.” When you constantly submerge yourself in your issues, you start to think that you’re the reason for all of your problems and to beat yourself up. And it becomes a never ending cycle. And you end up staying right where you are.
Lets backtrack for a minute…notice I said months ago these words came to me. I’m sure you’re wondering why I’ve waited two months to post this. I’ll tell you why. How about because it took me months to write it. I’m not the perfect person, so sometimes it takes me a little while to get out of certain places. And I’m telling you, it’s been hard to check my emotions. Especially since things have been coming from every area possible. When I tell you every area of my life, I mean that very thing. Family, home, relationships, my career, education, my ministry. Everything. However, after prayer, conversation, powerful services (the word), time, and a decision, I was able to refocus.

 
It’s not always easy to do things on your own. And it’s ok to seek out help. There are a few things that have helped me to check my emotions to the point that I can not worry so much about what I’m going through, but focus on the positive and how it’ll help take me to my next level. My solutions may not be your solutions, but it’s imperative that you figure out ways to help you check your emotions. Something that can hold you accountable for watching your disposition. Prayer, my circle (good company only), recognizing when God sends people or a word for you, taking some time, and making that decision to no longer stay in the situation you’re in. These are a few things that have helped me to shift. No I haven’t completely gotten out of my situations, but I refuse to be stuck there. That’s where the decision comes in. I refuse to constantly wallow in my circumstances. I’ll allow myself a moment, but I can’t get stuck. The way you react or respond to trouble, plays a huge part in how it’ll effect you. I promise you, checking your emotions and watching your disposition in the midst of what seems like chaos will bring about peace and positivity.

Editor’s Note: My Moment

Hello to all of my lovely supporters. It’s been a little while since I’ve posted a story or an article. I know there are some who have been waiting for something new. There are several reasons for my absence, and it’s necessary that my followers and supporters know.

I’ve been experiencing some difficulties within these past few months. It’s been a few months of  transition, seeking out, and trying to take a moment to figure out where I was, where I need to be, and how I plan to get there. This figuring out process has not been easy. At all. I realized the importance of taking a moment to focus and put my full attention on one specific area. Have I done the best at doing so? Absolutely not! But I’m a work in progress. So I believe as I begin to get my priorities in order, this will come with it.

I have many obligations, and I have not met them all. Simply because I still struggle with balance. Yes, me. The person who has wrote articles on balancing and focusing on one specific thing at a time. I write from experience; meaning, what I share with you all may very well be something I myself struggle with. So balance and focus are some one my biggest struggles. I tend to get overwhelmed at points and don’t always know where to start. I struggle from different areas as well. Which cause me to be stagnant. By no means am I using my struggle as an excuse. Truth be told, I should be able to acknowledge my struggle, but push anyway because my purpose is greater than that. However, I’m still human, and I’m still working towards becoming a better person.

Over the the last few months Lovely Miss Jones, LLC (have I made the official announcement here? Well, we’re an official company! Which means, so much more is on the way.), decided to collaborate on an idea. Still Becoming, Inc and GLLOW, LLC came into help out with Take A Moment event. A women’s health event that encouraged women to take a moment to be sure they’re well in every area; mental health, physical wellbeing, nutrition, etc. This event far exceeded my expectations. It was amazing! And I was able to learn so much from it. Which is why that won’t be the last! Look out for the next one.

 

In this process of figuring things out, my plan is to come up with what’s next for LMJ.  I have many article ideas, business ideas, project ideas, etc. It’s now time to move these ideas from just being ideas. There’s work that needs to be done. Proper planning that needs to be in place. And the faith that it takes to execute it. So I’m taking this time to build myself up. I have to build myself up spiritually to ensure that my desires align with God’s plan and will for my life. I have to be sure that my faith and confidence increases. And I also need to build and solidify good/beneficial relationships.

 

I’m learning the importance of taking a moment to make sure that I’m well, so that I can be as effective as possible when I use to you what was given to me. I’m just asking that you bare with me. I promise that what’s coming will be far greater than what you’ve gotten from LMJ so far. The greatness comes through the process. I’m so glad to have you all on this journey with me. This journey of discover, growth, success, and changed lives. I’m looking to have at least one, maybe two, articles for you this week. Thanks for sticking with me on this ride, there’s so much more to come!

 

Much love,

-xo Miss Jones

Pursuing Your Passion and Purpose in the Face of Adversity

Two weekends ago, I had the opportunity of returning to my Alma Mater to facilitate a workshop. This is something that amazed me in so many ways. Not only was this personal growth, but to see the impact this short session had on these students blew me away. Weeks have gone by, and I still haven’t been able to get it out of my head. If you know my journey, you’re aware of the reason why this is so huge to me. Growing up, I was beyond shy. I didn’t speak to many people at all, I was unsure of who I was, I never thought I had much to offer, and I didn’t know what my purpose was. Fast forward to now, I am aware of my purpose and I’m passionate about helping others find their purpose and passion. I’m passionate about sharing in order to create positive change in the lives of others. To see my progress and certain things unfold right before my eyes often times leave me speechless. Sometimes I can’t even believe how I’ve developed as a person. And because of it, I’m able to relate and reach others.

Being that this is still fresh on my mind and had the impact that it had, I figured I’d share the workshop/session with you all. The title or theme of the workshop was, Progress over Perfection: Pursuing Your Passion and Purpose in the Face of Adversity.  I started out with sharing a piece of my story then gave them ways to pursue your passion and purpose through the face of adversity.

When I entered college, I thought I wanted to be an accountant. I honestly liked the look of a businesswoman. In my mind they looked so powerful and successful, and that was something that I wanted. I sparked an interest in money, and became a financier in my church during high school. So I assumed that was the path for me. A few semesters down the line, I started to struggle in school. I failed a class and was put on academic probation. I then was forced to change my major. Coincidentally, this same semester was the semester many different people came to me for advice. Also the year, I realized there was something to my writing (although I didn’t share until after college). My failure helped me to find and recognize my passion. I was passionate about people and helping them. Something I realized at that point, and my major was changed to sociology. Failure promotes growth and progress. Something I had to learn. I was forced to look beyond and find my passion, because I clearly wasn’t living it.  I spent many nights crying and struggling in school. After I was faced with those papers, I soon realized accounting wasn’t my purpose. I could’ve just given up and thought school wasn’t for me all together. But deep down I knew there was something in me, I had purpose on my life and I had to take that moment to figure out the direction I needed to go down. There was something there, even in the face of adversity. I began writing a book after college, but my computer crashed different times a long the way. I decided to put the book on hold after that. I wanted to give up the writing thing all together, but something on the inside just wouldn’t let me. I was passionate about writing and something pulled me to share it with others. One day I went on vacation to Atlantic City, alone. As I sat in my room, I just decided that I needed to start blogging. I knew nothing about the process, but I just knew it was something I needed to do. I looked up a couple of sites and found one that I figured would be easier for me. After a few posts I began to get feedback on how my writing was helping others. Feedback confirms what you already know. I knew I was passionate about helping others and writing. The feedback confirmed that I was doing the right thing. Remember this, you’ll get confirmation of your passion and purpose along your journey. And although I didn’t always feel as if I was in the place I desired, I was reaching someone, I was making progress. We don’t have to be perfect to be effective, we just have to make progress.

This was just a brief version of a part of my story. But, I want to share six ways to pursue your passion and purpose through the face of adversity. These are all things that I realized were important on my journey.

  1. Write it out. We’ve all heard of the saying, “write the vision, make it plain’. This is so important when you have a dream or a goal. Being very specific in your desires is what will propel you. Write out what you feel your purpose is, what your passion is, all of your dreams, and how you will get there.
  2. Study and research the ends and out of your desired field. Don’t go into something blind-sighted. You need to know what you’re getting yourself into. although I jumped into blogging, there were many things I wish I knew before starting. There were things that I had to learn along the way, which I feel may have set me back a little. Research will put you in a better position for success.
  3. Take every opportunity you can to learn as much as you can. There will always be opportunities right in front of you that you must take advantage of. An example for me is being invited to different places to do workshops. I know that I’m not the greatest at it and often times I doubt myself, but there’s no way I can grow if I don’t take advantage of these opportunities presented. Even being called into leadership meetings or events. Just being able to allow an atmosphere to help you learn and grow is amazing.
  4. Connections. Who you are connected to is very important. It’s imperative to try to seek out a mentor and connect with people who are in a place that you desire to be in. Someone/people you can glean from. People who are not afraid to share their stories and experiences with you. People who are willing to share their struggle, their path, and how they were able to reach their level of success.
  5. Acknowledging setbacks and adversity. On the other hand, recognizing your purpose and doing it anyway. Often times things come up against us, but we are too afraid to deal with it. Brushing off what comes up against us will eventually cause stagnation. There’s no way we/re able to move if we don’t overcome the things that we face. In the midst of acknowledging the set backs and adversity, acknowledge what you possess. Acknowledge the gifts you were given and realize that your purpose is bigger than anything that may come up against you.
  6. Understand that the world needs you. We’ve all been given different gifts and talents. We posses things that the world is literally waiting for. What you have to offer will have the ability to change someone’s life. There are people who are depending on what’s places inside of you. For this reason alone, we should be compelled to live out our dreams and callings. What we possess isn’t all about us, it’s for the benefit of someone else.

 

Whatever you do, do what it takes to live out your passion with everything that’s inside of you. No matter what comes up against you, there’s purpose and destiny inside of you. We must also understand that everything won’t be perfect. Progress over perfection is what we should seek after. Lastly, if you’re willing to put in the work you’ll be able to successfully pursue your passion and your purpose.

Give Up To Give In

“First day of a new month. The beginning of lent. And the perfect time to take some time to become a better Krystle. Taking time to make sure I can grow and maintain in certain areas. One area at a time. Some won’t understand and others may. Some will judge, and some will wish me well. But at the end of the day, sometimes you have to do what’s best for you. You can consider people your whole life, and miss the mark in areas that concern you.”

These words are directly from my personal Facebook status that was posted the first day of Lent. As we approach a new month, new season , and season of sacrifice; I have personally decided to take some time off in certain areas to ensure that I’m in a certain place in my life. I’m not taking a break from writing and from investing into the business, but there are some areas that need less time. Rather, less of me. Less of me, so that I can put more time and energy into Krystle, and the things that concern Krystle. There are times where we invest so much time and energy into other people and into things, which causes us to lack in the areas of our own  being. I’ve come to the place where I realize that I haven’t invested enough time into Krystle. I’ve done things for Krystle, but things that weren’t always healthy or place me on the correct path. All of the energy that I’ve invested wasn’t always positive energy.

When I initially decided to take a step back, I had one area specifically in mind. But as I began to think within this month, along with the events that had taken places between the last few months, I realized there were other areas as well. I began to notice that a break from certain relationships was best as well. No romantic relationships, for those who had any ideas lol. Back to the point, I realized communication between myself and others just hadn’t been great. Misunderstanding after misunderstanding.  It’s so important to understand that when issues constantly arise, chances are it’s isn’t always the other party. And that should cause you to take a deeper look within yourself, to really get to the root of it.Why is there so much conflict? What am I doing, what’s my approach, what am I afraid of? All questions that rang in my head as I began to think about this situation. We all think we are pretty decent people. I think I am. But I know for a fact that I have qualities that I don’t even enjoy having. Qualities that aren’t always so positive. On the other hand, I’ve noticed there’s built up frustration because in more cases than one, I feel as if I consider others within the bounds of friendships and I don’t always get the same in return. Or am I really just expecting too much? Also, questions that popped into my minds as I realized I needed to take time for Krystle.

There are times when life won’t always be smooth. As much as we would like for it to be, some times we come up against different bumps. It’s just a part of life. However, we have to be wise enough to know when we need some time to reflect. Time to really search and look deep within to find the unanswered questions in order to become a better person. I for one, want to become a better person so badly. I don’t desire to stay on the same level that I’m on now, in all areas of my life. Therefore, I have to take action and do what it takes to become a better me. So as I intend to take time to pinpoint those areas I need to grow in, take time to pour into myself, and take time to grow; I encourage you to do the same. No one is perfect. We all have areas we need t improve in. Let’s not deny them any longer, rather take action to becoming better! Let’s give up some things, so that we can give in to ourselves to grow.

Faith That Takes, Not Waits

When I heard these word spoken by an evangelist in church this past Friday night, it spoke directly to me and my spirit. As she talked about the woman with the issue of blood from the bible, she said how she was the only one who received a miracle without permission. Most stories from the bible, you hear people asking Jesus to heal them. In the woman’s desperation and faith, she reached out and touched Jesus’ garments and was made whole. She was healed. She took a leap a faith, without anyone’s permission and got exactly what she was seeking.

Now, let’s take this story and apply it to our everyday lives. How often do we have things that we desire, our goals, our dreams; and just wait for it to happen. Just sit and wait as if we’re waiting on permission. We’re waiting for the approval of others. Or maybe waiting to be recognized for all of our desires to come to pass. The more we wait, the less possibility we have at actually getting those desires. This woman knew she couldn’t wait any longer. Her life literally depended on it. So she went out and took what she needed to live.

Our purpose and our destiny is what we need to live. Living out our calling is what we need to live. Instead of sitting and waiting, we have to get up and go get what belongs to us. We have to go out and get what we need to survive. I don’t know about any of you, but I want that kind of faith. That kind of faith that just takes it. That faith that doesn’t depend on the thoughts, opinion, words, and recognition of others. That faith of desperation. Knowing that my life and the lives of others depend on me fulfilling my purpose. Some things we just can’t wait for, we have to just have enough faith to take it! Whatever your “it”is, go out and get it!

-XO Miss Jones

2016: Letters From The Heart, Pain And Gain

I can honestly say, this has been one of the hardest years I’ve had to endure. There was so much I experienced. From lost, to pain, to unnecessary situations that I’ve placed myself in. It was almost as if this year threw darts consistently at me and those around me. Never ending cycles of pain or struggle came up against us. Things and situation that felt unfamiliar.

 

Towards the end of last year, coming into this year my grandmother was constantly in and out of the hospital. My grandmother suffered from many different medical issues, but this time was different. It began to look bleak and she was slowly slipping away. Being rushed to the hospital, being released, and going right back.

 
During this process, my father had a heartache. If he wasn’t taken to the hospital at the moment he was driven, it could’ve been much worst. He could’ve possibly been gone. my family and I spent Easter Sunday in the emergency room. He had to get a procedures done and was admitted. The next day I had a job interview. For position I never sought out at my job. The position I wanted at the time wasn’t available, so this was a great opportunity. Even with my anxiety considering my fathers condition, I went to the interview and went back to the hospital after. Everyday that week after work, we found ourselves right in the hospital. My mother was dealing with what she was dealing with with her mother, but stood my fathers side. And upon his release we made sure they got away to get some rest.

 

A few weeks later, my brother in law was taken to the hospital, and it was said he had a heartache. This came at one of the moments where my grandmother had another bout and was in the hospital yet again. At this point, I immediately felt like too much was happening with the people around me. It was scary to say the least.

 

During this struggle, I managed to get that new position at work. I accepted, and the very same day I was offered the position I always wanted. It took me for a loop. And it frustrated me that the position came once I accepted another. Although the position I wanted had perks that the one I accepted didn’t, I ultimately feel like I made the right decision. But didn’t realize it in this moment.

 

The end of April, we were called to the hospital for my grandmother. The doctors said it wasn’t looking good. She was slowly slipping. That day in the hospital was sort of traumatizing. A day I’d never forget. It almost feels like that was the moment we lost her. It was almost as if I watched my grandmother lose life right in front of me. And as I write this, I find myself back in that moment fighting back tears. That’s a pain I wish on no one. This is something I very rarely talk about. The emotions I felt in that very moment, are emotions that never leave. She became unresponsive and it was like something out of a movie. The events after are unspeakable. But she was in a non-responsive state after that. And we didn’t know when she would go. Going to visit her almost everyday, not knowing if she knew who I was. Wishing in those moments that I did more, that I made sure I was around more. But what hurt the most, was knowing I wouldn’t get the opportunity to do more from that moment on. So being there was all I could do. After work, making sure I went as much as possible. About a week and a half after that Sunday, in the wee hours of the morning, we got the call that she transitioned. It was a few days before Mother’s Day, and a few days before her birthday. We all thought she’d make it at least until her birthday. Well we were hoping. So we had a week to prepare for the celebration of her life, which my family decided should be on the day of her birth. That was a process, I never experienced. Going to the funeral home to look at caskets. Just something I wasn’t all the way prepared for. It was a huge blow for my family. To see my mother, the strongest woman I know, in this state of pain of also hard. But all I had were memories. I talked to my mother about the past with her. Still wishing I created more memories. I loved my grandmother with all my heart, and hoped she was still here to make us laugh in an instant.

 

Through this process, I experienced the most difficult months at work. I seriously contemplated quitting and inquiring about the position I originally wanted. I felt like this just wasn’t for me, because of things that came up against me. It caused me to question myself, but also question God. Because I felt that He’d place me there. I now realize it was a moment that only made me stronger.

 

After these moments, I experienced something that I’ve always wanted to. I was given the opportunity to leave the country on a missions trip in August. To have been able to spend my birthday in Haiti, meeting amazing young girls, and learning new things was beyond amazing. I felt like this was the catalyst for the shift of the rest of the year. Knocking things off of my bucket list and experiencing something like this. I can honestly say, it’s been one of the best birthdays I’ve had so far. It wasn’t about me, but what I had to offer on this trip. Something God gave me. And I’m forever grateful for being able to be exposed to this.

 

After celebrating my birthday and two official years of blogging, two media outlets reached out to me for an interview. May not seem like much to others, but being recognized without having to necessarily seek out the opportunity, is amazing to me. It shows that someone saw the work I was doing, and recognized it. Women Cultivators and Lady Boss Blogger were the outlets, and I’m grateful for those opportunities that showcased what I’m about and allowed a new audience to see it as well.
Looking back, I’m also grateful to have been able to speak and facilitate a workshop at a school about Black Culture and The Media. I told myself I wanted to travel more, I didn’t do as much as I’d like, but I went to Philly twice, went to Atlanta, and went out the country to Haiti. For people who travel often, that’s not much. But it was a step for me. This year, I also celebrated both of my parents 60th birthday. A huge milestone. Many don’t reach that age, and my father could’ve legit been gone after his heartache. And my mother could’ve been broken to pieces and unable to come back after she lost her mother. I decided to do a photo shoot, as a sign of freedom and greater to come. And that was a great experience in itself. Not just for great pictures, but for the encouragement I received that day. In August, had a successful youth conference. This was big. God showed Himself amazing.

 

After the shift, my other brother in law was sent to the hospital for a very serious heartache. After my nephew (his son) had to endure surgery for scoliosis. My nephews surgery was a success, thank God. My brother and law had to get open heart surgery. And that was a lot on my sister and family.

 

And weeks later, my brother was tragically gunned down and killed. If this year hadn’t brought on enough, this happening in October added to the pain. This was the most unexpected thing to have happened. I was supposed to call him that week, and to know that I’d never get to hear or see him again, hurt. Still to this day, I’m not able to listen to any videos of his voice. It’s too much for me. And despite our back and forth relationship, this was my brother for real. Always looked out. Always there.  

 

After this, I was so ready for this year to be completely over. I was over it. There was too much lost. Too many blows. I just couldn’t handle anything else going wrong. So many deaths in one year. Even those who weren’t family or as close, it hurt me. Because I know I should’ve done more to be connected. This year I decided to go to therapy because of what I experienced last year. But this year, that very think just kept being thrown at me. I got myself in extremely crazy situations. Things that aren’t even like me. I was pushed to give up relationships, when I didn’t want to. It was just lost and pain.

 
However, I can honestly say, these moments showed me how important it is to truly cherish every moment. It showed me that it’s imperative to be present and express and show love to those around you. All of the blows this year pushed me to end this year on a good note. It pushed me to want to be great. Because I know what those I lost would’ve wanted for me. I couldn’t stay down. The pain is still there, but it pushed me.

 

One thing I set in my mind to do, something I was honestly going to cancel, was the LMJ Scholarship Benefit. I knew this was something I needed to do. Not just for Krystle, but for others. For the young ladies that were awarded the scholarship, for those who have gone through and think they have to become stagnant, for those who need guidance and inspiration. I had to push beyond my limits to create a way for someone else. To create platforms for other people. To allow people to connect that wouldn’t normally connect. It wasn’t until after the event that I realized just how necessary this was. How powerful it was. When you go beyond yourself, It’s still possible to gain. Even through your pain. This has been an incredibly tough year, but I was able to see the handiwork of God. There are areas of life that wouldn’t be the way they are if we didn’t experience these tough moments. And although sometimes it felt like it, all wasn’t necessarily lost. There was still a bit of hope left. God was right there in every moment, and working on our behalf as well.

 

And although I placed myself in some of the worst situations, God also placed me where I needed to be. I attended a few events, where I know God orchestrated it. He placed me around business women that showed and taught me that I don’t have to compromise my faith to be successful. This was huge for me. Because I found myself compromising in too many areas. And I’m now at a place where I know for sure that I don’t have to. I can’t afford to. And through this, my faith is increased. Being pushed by my pain and being exposed to certain things has given me faith. Faith to make moves. My theme for 2017 is faith moves. I can do nothing aside of God, and my faith and trust is completely in Him. I’m pushed to take the barriers that I’ve placed on myself off. Going beyond the limits. Regardless of what’s in place, now’s the time to give the world what it needs.

 

This is an extremely long post, but this is straight from the heart. My thoughts. I just want to encourage you to allow your pain to push you. Allow God to show you His handiwork in the midst of struggle and hurt. Get to the place where you can be stripped, but still see God. See that it’s possible to come back after lost, pain, and struggle. See that through all that you experience, God is developing something in you. Something that someone else needs. Something that causes you to increase your faith enough to move. This post may not be in the best order, but I need you to see something raw. Feel where I’m coming from, so you can relate. So we can come up, grow, and move together! Even through your pain, you can gain.

Wishing you all a safe, prosperous, and healthy year New Year. Full of faith moves!

-xo Miss Jones

The World Needs You

Four very simple words, that carry so much weight. So much power. These past few months I’ve been reminded by a friend, that the world needs what we have. There are times when we are aware of what we have, but we don’t always know how powerful it is. And how much someone else needs it. We’ve all been gifted with something. We all have a talent, or something that we are skilled at. These particular things aren’t given to us, just to say, “hey, I can do this…” or “I have this idea…” And leave it there. There are people literally waiting for what we have. Our gifts, talents, and abilities are far beyond us.

 

Often times we sit on what we’ve been given, for several reason. But now is the time to breakaway from those thoughts and get up and make things happen. As many of you know, I have my bouts with insecurities. So there are times where I know I’ve sat on what God has given me. I know I should be further along with my writing, and there are projects outside of my writing that I need to begin. But I’ve been sitting on it. There are times where I feel like, I’m not good enough to complete it. Or maybe I’m just not ready to put it into action. So instead of taking steps towards where I need to be, I just sit back and chill.

 

It’s been quite some time since I’ve actually written consistently. It’s often that I’ve used time as an excuse, since my new schedule with work. Or because of the many downfalls this year has brought on. But I’ve realized one is often moved by realizing what God has given them and the effect they have on others. Within these past few months, others have shown me just how much I need to get my head back in the game. Which has ultimately caused me to strive to take what I have to the next level. I’m reminded of the ways that I’ve heard how I’ve helped others using what I posses. The steps that people have planned to take after reading an article or bearing a piece of my story or someone else’s story I shared. But there has to be a greater level to that, so that others can be drawn and lives can be changed. Because I’ve seen the effect that I’m capable of having on others, I know how much the world needs what God has given me. And not on the current level I’m operating in. There’s a next level, because more people need what I have. More people need to see my words on paper, hear my experiences, and see how I’ve overcome.

 

There are so many of you that have hidden gifts and talents. Powerful gifts that the world needs. Something that will ignite and spark change in someone else’s life. It’s time for us to tap into our abilities, and operate in its full capacity. No, it’s not always easy. But trust, you’re not the only one. We all experience doubt and negativity, but just think about what you’ve been able to do on a level of mediocrity. If you’ve been able to touch just one person, imagine how much more you can do when you put your all in and go forth with no fear. We have to, there are way too many people waiting for us. And when we drop the ball, we fail them. Let’s get our heads back in the game and pull others up with us.

-xo Miss Jones

Believe In Your Gift

If you don’t believe in what you’ve been given, who will? The question that’s been floating around in my mind for quite some time now. Too often we have gifts and ideas that we just sit on. We sit on them, waiting for the right time to execute. Or we wait because we don’t feel like we’re not in the right position. Then there are those times where we doubt our gifts, and feel as if it’s not good enough. But is there ever a perfect time to pursue our dreams using what we’ve been given?

These past couple of weeks have pushed my thinking a little further. I’ve been put in situations where I literally had to question if I believed in myself and in my gift enough. The place I’m currently in is not the place I’m supposed to be in, and that has a lot to do with the way I use what I’ve been given. About two weeks ago, I was in conversation via email with someone about an opportunity that I wanted to be involved in for quite some time. The person I was conversing with, went really hard about whether I’m qualified for the opportunity. To be honest, my first thought was to just back down. I then had to tell myself to get it together. I’m not where I want to be, but I’m nowhere near the place that I started. I’ve worked hard to get to where I am, and I refuse to allow someone to think that I’m not good enough. After I checked Krystle, I finally replied to the email, not knowing or even worrying about the response I’d get. I then received an email letting me know that the opportunity was mine. 

The only reason I was able to get this opportunity is because I believed in my gift and my ability. I reminded myself of who I am, and what I have. And I stood firm in that, with confidence. Too often we doubt ourselves and possibly allow opportunities to showcase what we have to slip right out of our hands. 

This is one of the post important steps to fulfilling our purpose, believing in ourselves enough to show up. There’s room despite how you feel people perceive you, or despite the negative thoughts that often try to crowd your mind. It’s important that in those moments, you combat it immediately. Positive affirmation, confirming who you are will begin to shift your thinking. 

I wrote a post this week on Instagram that read, “you secure your seat at the table when you show up.” All we have to do is show up. Regardless of the questions, whether others think we have the qualifications or not, and despite the doubt. Allow your belief in your gift to overpower that, and just show up. And this is exactly how your passion will be fulfilled. You’ll go far beyond the place you thought you’d go. You’ll reach far more people you could’ve imagined. All because you dared to believe and show up.

Again, believe in your gift enough to show up! Blessings, 
-xo Miss Jones