Often times we may feel that we have something under control, but that doesn’t mean it won’t rise up again. We have to be consistent in keeping certain things in check. And today I was reminded of this. Well not just today, but it just wasn’t my day. Hopefully you caught that.
In any event, I was a little overwhelmed today. After a few conversations that led to deep thought I began to wonder about certain situations. I’ve also been trying to work on my website and launch party that I plan to have this August. With everything going on, I began to think if it’s even possible. I began to doubt myself and my abilities to make things happen. Even questioned whether I fully knew my worth.
As you may gather from my previous posts, I’ve struggled with insecurities and the way that I feel about myself. I’ve struggled with whether I’m good enough as a person and whether I’m good enough as a writer. I have grown tremendously. I’ve come to the place where I realize I have something to offer. However, after you begin to realize who you are, that very thing you think you’ve overcome will most definitely creep back on you. As I went about my day this morning, taking care of business and running errands I started to feel down. I became frustrated with the thought of things not falling into place they way I wanted them to. A few unexpected surprises and I felt those insecurities rush right back. I had a moment. I was definitely in my feelings.
Then as I was on the bus, still stuck in my feelings about to tweet, something inside of me said, “this will help someone else. Snap out of it and write about it. You have something to share that will help someone. This is what you do.” Now at first, I wanted to ignore it and stay in my feelings just a little longer. But I can’t sit back on what I’ve been called to do. Those days are over.
So I began to think and some things began to come to me. Although we grow and overcome different stages in our lives, we have to constantly make sure we stay in a place of growth. We’ve all experienced different insecurities in our lives, but we have to remind ourselves of who we are not who our insecurities say that we are. There are ways to prevent these feelings from overtaking us. The thing I find helpful to do, is to repeatedly remind yourself of who you are and all that you have to offer, through positive affirmation. Write it down if you need to and keep referring to it. Daily. It’ll help build you up and keep you in a good place.
So I encourage you to constantly work on those things that held you back in the past. Don’t allow it to creep up and overpower you. You are strong and you have much to offer. Walk in your purpose, calling, and destiny!
~Lovely Miss Jones xo